Rediscovering My True Identity

"What the hell are you talking about," you might wonder. I am reporting about the new beginning in my competitive drive. I am getting back into windsurfing racing!
My dear friend, Masako Imai, went to the 1992 Barcelona, the 1996 Atlanta, and 2000 Sydney, and the 2004 Athen Olympic Games. Her good friend, Barbara Kendall of New Zealand, went to her fifth Olympic in Beijing. She has won a gold, a silver, and a bronze medal. Both woman sailors are about the same age as me.
I was one of the top ten finishers (#7) in the National Olympic Training Team qualifier race in Japan in 1985. I did not pursue Olympic training back then, and instead concentrated my efforts on competing in the inter-collegiate racing, winning titles including the best freshman, all-Japan team racing, and a supreme slalomer (twice). My last race was in 1992, Mistral Class U.S. Southeastern Championship in Charleston, South Carolina. I surprised the crowds by finishing first in the first race and fifth in the second, leading the pack on the first day. But, my body could not take any more on the second day as I was hardly sailing at all for four years since I left Japan. (My arms and legs were having clamps all night long.) My much poorer racing performance on the second day of the Championship, including an upsetting disqualification in one race, knocked me off the winning contention.
After many years of studying hard and pursuing academic competitions, I have realized that my true competitive drives (not competitiveness per se) are found on the water, in speed, in strong wind, and between roaring waves.
Out of my three best talents (windsurfing, fishing, and political analysis), windsurfing got the least amount of time left. Instead of continuing to have bad dreams about the races I lost by making mistakes, I have decided to launch an uphill battle to reclaim my place in the windsurfing competitions. Unlike last time, when I was racing for the college team and other responsibilities, my racing this time will be only for myself. Win or lose, I can totally be cool about it. The only important thing is that I will be enjoying the competitions. I am sure I will enjoy as long as my body can keep up. (I need to regain some lost muscles, but I am already in a pretty good shape, having lost all fat by mere elementary yoga.) Will report on the progress of my training.